In seventh grade, he became curious about the Morrissey pictures on his Latino pals' folders, discovered the Smiths and transformed himself from choirboy to New Wave brat.

As his band grew, Glenn's torment about his sexuality – whether he'd make it public, or bottle it up for eternity – started to take its toll.

His secret was compounded by an affection he'd developed for a man working closely with the band.

At one point, a bespectacled young guy presses his face to Glenn's hands and reverently sighs, "I should be on my knees." "I wonder how he'll feel in about a month," Glenn muses when we clear the throng.

In five weeks, Provo – an 88 percent Mormon town, in which rock clubs don't sell alcohol, only soda – will get the news, along with the rest of the world, that Glenn has been quietly sharing with friends and family for a couple of months: He's gay, has known he's gay since he was six years old and has been living a closeted life for decades that choked his spirit and threatened his sanity.

He had a girlfriend and says he was "in love with her, as far as I knew." When he left high school, Glenn did something that surprised even his parents: He announced he was doubling down on Mormonism and going on a two-year mission to convert people to the faith.

"I was like, ' I'm 18, I'm either going to go to college, which I have no interest in because I want to be in music, or I have to go on a mission,'" he says.A month after he moved back home, he finally gave in to his urges and went on his first gay date, nervously meeting the online hookup at a casino, where they had sushi."That was the first time I'd ever kissed a guy, and I was like, ' This is exactly what's been missing in a physical relationship,'" Glenn says.Glenn papered his bedroom walls with images of Bruce Springsteen and sneaked out of the house to try the usual teenage temptations."I think I felt worse about masturbating than drinking," he admits.In his early twenties, meeting men online was his only option.